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It is the most sensual experience…
It gives you perspective.
It gives you understanding on the durability of the female body.
How we have survived… violence… and rape… and birth… and death… and…. and … we are still ….we are…
adaptable.
Durable.
It is the most sensual experience…
It gives you understanding of why women have longer lifespan than men…….
and how…
those growing bones…
those tissues within you …
turn into a person…
Their own thing…
It makes itself.
These few cells dividing…
turn into more and more…
and…
it takes over …
It takes over your body from the inside
An alien.
Your little alien…
transformed from two cells meeting…
Living in fluid and breathing your insides…
Deeply lodged into your groin,
It made itself in your own image.
It bounced of off your hip bones,
and tore you open.
It came kicking and screaming,
hours of labor,
hours of pain,
hours of pushing
turned into days.
It made itself,
expelling deeply from within you…
kicking and screaming to get out.
Now here, it is you and it is not you.
You have separated…
divided yourself…
into this new alien form.
You see your cells,
Your blood,
Your genes,
Your face,
outside of you
and with a mind of its own.
Bloody,
wet,
shaking
Fluids expelling
belly empty,
skin flopping.
Torn up and sown up…
with needle and thread as if my vagina is a family quilt to be mended.
I am Split.
Outside of you it is novel, new, different, other.
I cannot sleep
I cannot eat,
A sensual dance, between this new body and my old birthing body. A sensual dance between mother and offspring.
I am split.
My genetic material sleeping next to me.
I am consumed, as if I…
myself…
am within the small new body…
but it is not me.
It is its own person, its own thing, ten fingers and ten toes.
I serve it,
I care for it.
My old body gives fully
Until this alien make itself- into my own image.
Slowly rhythms emerge – a dance of give and take, we exchange fluids – me constantly giving and it constantly expelling…
A loving parasite,
an energy vampire,
an alien.
We have both transformed…
No longer bound by the same space…
we have emerged different.
I am connected to it
and
am a slave to it.
I split
and
gave my other self
a mind of its own.
I propagated
I created
I put an alien on this planet
And as I did that
I killed my old body
I killed my old self
Shifted
Transformed
Danced the sensual dance
Changed
And immerged
Different
Scarred
Sleep deprived
Skin Saggy
Caring
I propagated
I created
I put an alien on this planet
And as I did that
I killed my old body
I killed my old self
Shifted
Transformed
Danced the sensual dance
Changed
And immerged
Different
Scarred
Sleep deprived
Skin Saggy
Caring
